despondence dance

it's more of a shudder.
an inside shudder.

and i am doing it all wrong
and i have screwed it all up royally, of course.
because that is how my feelings lean
with the string tighteningtightening higher

and i cannot be fucked
dragging my feet in the gutter
drooping shoulders and overcast eyes.
you look nothing like you once did.

you see nothing like you once did.

you believe nothing like you once did.

you love nothing like you once did.

you care for nothing like you once did.

you hate nothing like you once did.

you are nothing like you once did.